When I took a shower today I ran my hands through my hair to wet it. After that I went to wipe the water from my eyes and I got a faceful of hair. I then put my hands back into my hair and grabbed two handfuls of hair and easily and painlessly pulled it all out.If was time for a hair cut.
I have been anticipating this side effect since the day I was told it was coming. In a way I was looking forward to it; I felt like it was a way of announcing to the world that this was happening to me.
And then when I was feeling as tired as I was I again wanted it to happen, but for a different reason. I'd felt self conscious about how I must look: head down, walking at a snail's pace, speaking so softly I could barely be heard. I wanted there to be some badge showing, explaining that I don't normally behave this way, I'm not depressed and I have a voice and something to say.
The other side of it was vanity of course. How will I look without any hair? It my head secretly lumpy, misshapen and/or discolored?
Also, when people see, will they look at me differently? With compassion or pity? Or will they just assume I like my hair that way or was bald anyway and that I'm a picture of health? I guess we'll find out, although not quite completely yet.
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We decided to make it a family event and Renee decided to express her inner hairdresser since there was no consequence to any mistake.
The end result turned out pretty good. I look a bit like the guy from Prison Break, a guy named Wentworth Miller, if I do say so myself.
There only potential problem is this that this isn't the final look. In the last two frames you can see a hint of the real final hair destination. Before we began clipping, the whole family had some fun grabbing their own handfuls of hair and pulling them out. With a full head of hair it wasn't apparent where those roots were located, but with it fully buzzed it was obvious.
So there's one more celebrity comparison we'll have to wait for, before we know how I'll be regarded when I'm out in public:
Just wanted to say that I really appreciate your blog. I've been following it for a bit as my husband Reese started his 3 x BEP on the same day you began your treatment. It's really helpful to read about your experiences and impressions -- so many similarities between what your family and ours are facing. I have a blog about my thoughts and Reese's treatment at http://BetterHandsNow.blogspot.com if you want to check it out. The haircut looks great! We're getting close to pulling out the clippers too -- take care.
ReplyDeleteYOu're one handsome dude! Mom
ReplyDeleteYou're so humble. Isn't the Prison Break dude the Sexiest Man Alive or some other such thing?
ReplyDelete@Mom - aw, you have to say that
ReplyDelete@Bob - no, I am
@Cara - I'll check it out. I'm jealous he'll be done three weeks before I am...good luck!
You look VERY cool!!! You did forget one more look-a-like though..........
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ReplyDeleteOh your Mom is so right...you most certainly are one handsome dude...and I don't have to say that! haha carmela
ReplyDeleteI love the progression in the photos. I'm so glad you had as much fun with that as possible. Hmmm, I seem to recall a night of shaving your head with a similar sequence....but I digress.
ReplyDeleteLooks really good. You really do look like the dude from prison break. Like Ali said to me after seeing the pictures, "Didn't Ted have that haircut when I met him?" so I don't think it's that different a look for you (then again, that was almost 15 years ago!).
I think it looks great buzzed! I'm trying to convince Edward to buzz his hair for the summer. He wants his hair to be "long" - I really don't know what style he is going for (he looks like an electrified chicken in the morning). He grabs his hair with 2 fists at the hairdresser and commands her not to cut alot. He needs to get over it - it's just hair. I may as well buzz mine bc my new short haircut sucks. I finally know who I look like....first I thought Dutch Paint Boy, but now I realize I look like that lady from the Triscut cracker commercials in the 70's - the peter pan lady, Sandy something....????
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